For the fourth time in equally many weeks, I spent my Sunday at Bygdsiljum Bike Park. Today, I and Maria challenged ourselves to drop. First, we checked out the rock drop in Mosquito. I dared myself to do that last Sunday, but for Maria, it was the premier for the season. She of course did it like a pro.
My main mission of the day was to challenge myself to do at least one of the drops in Östdroppet. The first drop on that course is a roughly 1.5 wood construction and has a pretty loose and sandy landing. I don’t know how many times I have stood on the edge of that bridge, looking down, and chickening out. All I see when I’m standing up there is me loosing control over my bike, and crashing into the trees and rocks. After the accident, I’ve also feared that my ankles would crumble under the force of gravity when I hit the ground.
I’m not really sure what was different today. Perhaps it was just that I had decided that my Sunday Challenge was to hit a new drop, or maybe my dropping self-esteem has improved from that rock drop in Mosquito. In any case, I today found myself letting go of my breaks and flying off that drop. The landing was indeed very loose. I completely lost control of my bike when I hit the ground and consequently did a little somersault. After a discussion with Maria of what I did wrong, and watching some guys (actually both crashing) and nailing the landing, I decided to give it another go. My pulse was definitely very high (you know, like when your head is throbbing from your own heart beat?), but somehow I managed to still myself enough to get up on the bike and once again take the leap. This time I nailed it.
I think that Maria nearly turned deaf from all my screaming, and half crushed from my euphoric hugs. Yes, just a tiiny bit emotional… Sorry for crushing your boobs Maria.
My other mission of the day was to get some air over the table jumps. I guess my success on that note depends on how you define “air”…
I did get SOME air, like 20 incredibly embarrasing cm or so. Damnit!
Every time I’ve been to Bygdsiljum these past 4 weeks, I’ve seen beginners starting out by rolling wearingly over the jumps, but by the end of the day most actually get a pretty decent air ride. I see Maria and Karin flying over the same jumps effortlessly, a little bit higher every time, while I myself continue with my skips. It is sooo frustratring! I wish someone could just creep in under my skin and force my fingers to not push those breaks. Its weird really, on smaller jumps, I have no problem at all bouncing off in full speed, but as soon as the jump is a bit higher, I just panic. And although I know that I have to make myself dare to charge, I just can’t seem to make myself do it. Why the heck can I convince myself to ride my bike into thin air off a drop, but not jump when there is a kick? I think I need professional help.