So I went, I saw and I performed … and if I get lucky, I’ll soon have to make the toughest choice in my life: Do I, or do I not move to Tromsö?
Of course I do! In Tromsö, I get to live on the shore of the fjord and the foot of some of the most amazing mountains in the world.
Of course I don’t! I have the most important thing in the world in Umeå – friends who know me inside out and my mom and dad – how could I ever leave, or live without, them?
But of course I do! My friends and family won’t disappear. I can visit, and they will come visit me for sure. And in Tromsö, I will meet so many new exciting people that will light up my life and with whom I can climb those amazing mountains, and ski and ride my bike and kayak the fjords and…
No, but I can’t! I have the best job ever in Umeå. I love my colleagues (I even really like my boss), and I feel super appreciated for the work that I do. I feel like I have a lot of say concerning the development of our education and personnel policy, and I have a super flexible schedule, making it possible to go adventuring almost whenever I want to.
Don’t be silly! I’ve wanted this ever since 2010 when the thought of Tromsö first appeared in my head. Of course the econ dept in Umeå is fantastic, but there is nothing saying that the department in Tromsö won’t be just as great. They seemed pretty damn terrific when I met them. The department is small, but that may make it easier to get to know everyone, and to get to get involved in the set up of the courses. In addition, the position in Tromsö means that I will have 50 % research time, fully funded. I repeat: FULLY funded. !!! . In Sweden, I have to spend a substantial part of my time applying for research grants (of which most gets rejected of course) in order to not teach full time. AND, in Norway, I would get to go on sabbatical! Its like the tenure track system in USA except you get tenure straight away. Completely insane. AND, the department is on the same floor as the department of psychology, AND there is someone working on risk taking behavior in extreme sports there!
In addition, that small mountain town doesn’t just contain mountains. It also hosts the largest film festival in Norway every year, has almost more bars than people, and fresh fish! And huge mammals in the sea! WHALES! This fall, there was a huge herd (flock?) of Humpback and killer whales so close that you could stand on the shore and watch them, and my friend Tanja tells me that she sees porpoises almost every day…
But yikes! Moving is such a hassle! I’ll have to buy a new car, since it would cost me over 30 000 SEK to bring Lloyden due to import restrictions. Finding a place to live in Tromsö is super hard, and super expensive. My rent would tripple. And I’ve lived in my flat in Umeå since 2001… yep, I do have a lot (A LOT) of unknown stuff hidden in my attic, and in various places in the apartment. It’s going to be a lot of work.
But YAY! Tromsö! I could take a first aid course that is for wilderness proper, and I could learn about snow for real! AND I would get to wake up to THIS every morning!
But I can’t even ski at the moment (I tried last Sunday, my ankle started hurting like hell after just a few runs and haven’t stopped hurting since)! What am I thinking moving to a place of permanent winter?
Chill out. I will be able to ski eventually, and in the mean time I can do easier tours. And climb. And look at the whales.
And I won’t have to pine for the fjords anymore, because they will be right there.
I can’t sleep, my stomach is a mess, and I can’t focus on work, all I think about is do I or don’t I? WHY THE HELL IS IT SO HARD??!! And I haven’t even received the offer yet 🙂