They say that time heal all wounds. I hope that They are right and that time is working overtime on my right leg. Although more than two years has passed since the snow on Lebnes tore me apart, the scars that the avalanche left on my body still give me pain.
But time is making amends. Last year, one day on skis transformed me into a cripple for two weeks. When I decided to move up to Tromsø, home of endless winter, a part of me wondered if I had lost my head completely. But this year, I have been skiing several days per week for three months.
A minuscule step for mankind is a gargantuan victory for little me.
I must confess that I have cheated: my alpine breakfast consists of one big bite for my stomach and one dose of painkillers for my shin. I’ve taken the pills as prophylaxis, as a way to help my body ignore false pain signals and reduce the risk of inflammation, and to be able to endure putting on my ski boots. My master plan has been a grand success: 37 days on skis so far is a more than decent number for a cripple even if not all days were long and some where shorter than short. But I can see that those 37 days has taken its toll. I turned 39 a some time ago. The past week, I’ve felt the weight of those 39 years on my shoulders, or rather on my ankle and shin.
My muttering body has started to raise its voice, and I have realized that it is time to listen. I want to get stronger, so now I rest. The past weekend, while everyone else in Tromsø took advantage of the stable conditions brought by spring corn, I and the invalido next to me took advantage of the sun, and the fjord.
At first, sitting still on the flat beach while the mountains were glowing in their white dresses made me restless and frustrated: I was supposed to be up there and challenge both my fears and my body.
But after a while, as the wind settled down, I did too. Sunbathing on a beach by the fjord and gazing at white giants while discussing the physics of the tide, is not such a bad thing to do. For most people, it paradise. So as I lay there by the glimmering water, I came to realize that I am just like most people. This is paradise.